Down the rabbit hole

4 August, 2018 paintings

Alice in Wonderland has always been my favorite story. When I was a little girl, even before I learned how to read, I used to tell my mother the complete adventure of Alice down the rabbit hole and into the wonderland where she found all kinds of amazing creatures and, herself, in a marvelous way.

The time passed by and suddenly, I am a grown-up woman. The thing is I didn’t want to grow up at all, I wanted to stay down that rabbit hole for years to come and follow the white rabbit wherever he wanted to go. But life is challenging and mysterious. Life didn’t want me to stay there forever and now I am facing my own quest.

I decided to face the unknown because looking inside me is my biggest mystery and, why not say it, my biggest fear.

But I am not alone. Earlier this year, I re-discover a lost craft inside of me: painting. I began painting again and I chose my favorite technique to do so: watercolors.

It hasn’t been easy, more than the drawing and the technique (which can be tricky sometimes); looking inside of me and let myself speak through the brushes, the water, and the pigments has given me the courage to go on in this “real” world.

I am going to share with you my process. It hasn’t been easy but I am sure you will enjoy it.

Here is a self-portrait based on precolombian art. I made it while I was staring at the shadow of my head reflected over the paper. I hope you like it and thank you for reading.

© Monica Aguilar V.